"But he said to me. "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." ~2 Corinthians 12:9
I'm loving this song & this one right now. I love it when they come up on my running playlist while I work out. I love how the Lord can use music to minister to our hearts and comfort us in our struggles. He is so good!
I just added Spirit of the Marathon to our Netflix cue after reading about it on a running blog. I can't wait to watch it!! Even if I'm not running right now as I continue physical therapy I know I will enjoy watching other runners talk about training, why they run and how running affects their lives.
They're cute aren't they? They are two of the sweetest girls you will ever meet. My Talia and Liliana. They are kind and helpful. They are smart and curious. They are thoughtful and creative. They also challenge me to no end. Today was a hard day being their Mama. Don't get me wrong. I love being a Mom but it can be at times very challenging and very refining. Today was filled with whining, arguing, dragging of feet to finish chores and work, not sharing, not napping, not listening....and it goes on and on. There were some sweet moments but at the end of the day I feel exhausted and a bit defeated.
My youngest Liliana has been going through a very independent, strong willed, and stubborn phase which I would imagine many would suggest is simply a case of the "terrible twos". I see it as much more than that. Liliana is testing boundaries and trying hard to gain her own independence that is true. However I feel like I have also been given a glimpse into her own sinful nature. When I give instructions for her to obey she disobeys. When I tell her to clean up she whines. Basically you name the task and she wants to do it her way and if she can't she cries and tells me a sharp "No!". As I work through teaching her first time obedience God has shown me the ugliness of my own sad and sinful heart. While I often like to hide behind the illusion that my life including my parenting is perfect the truth of the matter is I struggle and I'm a sinner. The beautiful news is that I'm not going through this life alone! While God continues to gently show me the real state of my heart, He is also patiently showing me that He is there right next to me. You see I am often like my two year old...whining, disobeying, tantruming because I want what I want when I want it. I don't want to wait for God's timing, I don't want to allow Him to have control, I want to plan and do things my own way. How many times do I tell God "No!". Sadly far too many.....The more that I am a parent the more I see my own sin and the more I see my own need to be on my knees asking the Lord for help, encouragement, and His wisdom.
As I parent these two beautiful girls that the Lord has so graciously entrusted to me I pray that the Lord would change me. I pray that He would make me more like Him and less like me. I'm praying that through the tantrums He would give me His heart for my children, His patience, His love, and His grace.
Welcome to Multitude Monday hosted by A Holy Experience. I am on a mission to record 1000 gifts I have. My hope is that God changes my heart as I seek Him and reflect on His goodness and all that He has blessed me with.
0001 His mercy that is new every morning
0002 An afternoon cuddle with my two favorite girls
0003 A moments quiet during naptime
0004 My favorite afternoon snack of apples and peanut butter
0005 New cozy socks....they really are my favorite
When I first thought about starting this blog it was going to be a blog all about my adventures in running, racing and life. It was going to be all about me. I'm thankful that I didn't end up starting that blog but instead God has inspired me to start this blog that hopefully will reflect more about Him than me. I want more and more for my life to be a reflection of the joy that I have from my relationship with my dear sweet Savior. The word GRACE has been my constant companion for the last few years. God has shown me in new ways what that word means and how it is to be included in my life. God's sweet GRACE for me, showing GRACE to others, giving GRACE to myself....oh how far I still have to go. I'm so thankful that I have a God that is patient and loving. But I find hope in the promise that He is not done with me yet. He is a loving God and I am His daughter. He is good and faithful I'm so very thankful! In thinking of a name for this blog I knew that I needed to included His wonderful Grace. I want to be running to His love, His mercy, His grace in my life rather than running to so many other things I put in front of Him. More on unpacking these thoughts as the weeks and months go by. For now I will say that His Grace is sufficient!
I've taken a long hiatus to blogging but thought I would give it another go. Hoping to use this little place to process the day to day areas of my life that need refining, share insights and thoughts, shamelessly brag about my kiddos and post random things as well. Happy blogging!!